Off the Mat Yoga

How to Deal with Your Mindful B*!@#

I remember those days when I wished to be more mindful. I imagined that life would get better then. I started eating very mindfully, practicing yoga mindfully, living mindfully. And yes – my wishes came true! I’m mindful, every single day, if you exclude watching Netflix (where my mindfulness moves into the life of Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt or Sherlock Holmes).

Anyway, I’m mindful. And truth be told, I’m not sure life is much better this way, because it takes absolutely all the drama away. Sometimes, I just need to be a drama queen. So it goes a bit like this…

The drama queen starts by being dramatic, usually about something concerning yoga or my lifestyle, by saying stuff like: “My Chaturanga isn’t getting any better – this is worthless! I won’t get any better even though I’m always practicing and doing everything correct. I might as well just quit Vinyasa and change to Bikram!”

Then the mindful b**** steps in (yes, I tend to not like her that much when I’m desperately trying to be dramatic…) and says something like this: “Well, sweetie, if you don’t really practice you won’t get much progress. You know that you need to practice outside of class as well if you want to get results. You should know better”.

Yes, she is right (of course), which destroys all the drama. I’ve also tried being dramatic about my sleep.

Since I was a child it has always taken me a long time to fall asleep, and being dramatic about it was my response (even though it was far from being the solution). Miss Mindfulness steps up her game again and says calmly: “Of course you won’t fall asleep easily if you do not put any effort into it. You shouldn’t be scrolling down Instagram in bed since the bright screen wakes you up, and you also know that reading a book or listening to music will help you fall asleep quicker.”

This is what she does, this lovely, mindful lady. This big know-it-all that is simply there to stop the drama and make me make my life better. Alright, I guess she is not as annoying as I make her to be. But the thing is that now I can’t complain, I can’t be dramatic, I can’t make problems out of nothing, and I can’t be frustrated about things I know I can change. I always know better. I know what I’m supposed to do to change things I’m not happy with – to make things better, to grow my practice. But of course, change is difficult in the sense that I actually need to make an effort to make it happen (and my mind is always putting me forward).

The fact is more mindfulness has also given me more stable happiness, and I will always be grateful for that. My whole thinking has changed; yoga has changed me in a way that I never expected. It isn’t always nice or easy, but it makes me a better person. One day I will make peace with my mindfulness, but for now let me try to be a bit dramatic a little bit longer…

 

How about you? Have you experienced yoga or mindfulness changing you in this way? How has yoga affected your thinking?

8 Comments

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    Ilga

    July 5, 2016 at 4:05 am

    Funny article! 🙂 I love your style of writing, Pála! 🙂 I myself have noticed a huge shift in my thinking, since I have been doing yoga and getting really concious about beeing mindful! I love to look for tools to get my mind in control, because I am kind of a control freak when it comes to certain things in my life! I have discovered that I just love to be in control of my mind! When I read a great article with tips about how to deal with certain things in life or how to react to stuff or rather not react in certain situations, I just get so happy when I can really put it to work in my life! I used to be a “say whats on your mind” kinda girl, and sometimes I did hurt people whithout even knowing I was doing it! Now I know better! 🙂 I also love the thought, that we don’t need to have an opinion about everything, sometimes it is just better to stay quiet! 🙂 The hardest thing is to just let go of certain things you can’t change and not get all worked up about it! 🙂 But after I manage to do that, I feel such a relief and accomplishment for myself! Gives me true joy, that I can control my reactions! And that is one thing about becoming more mindful in my life, just beeing the best version of myself by thinking about the things I say to people around me and how I react to things!

    Thank you for the article! We all sometimes need a little reminder about how to just think before you say or do something! 😉

  2. Pála Margrét

    Pála Margrét

    July 5, 2016 at 6:19 am

    Thanks for sharing Ilga! <3

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    Jessie J

    July 9, 2016 at 11:12 am

    Funny! I know exactly what you mean. Although, there are days when I acknowledge that I know what I could be doing to make things better, and I still choose to be a drama queen. But at least I’m being mindful of it! 🙂

    1. Pála Margrét

      Pála Margrét

      July 11, 2016 at 12:44 pm

      Of course Jessie – we are still human! And being a mindful drama queen is thousand times better then just being a drama queen! 🙂

  4. Amanda

    Amanda

    July 11, 2016 at 5:45 pm

    My little reminder is, “Amanda, you know how to do this.” When I feel myself getting worked up about something, like not being able to fall asleep, I say that to myself, which helps me focus back in on my breathing or maybe roll into child’s pose for a few minutes rather than lying there and fighting against the sleeplessness. It definitely keeps the drama queen in check. She hangs her head and says, “Oh, yeah, I guess I do….” 🙂

    1. Pála Margrét

      Pála Margrét

      July 12, 2016 at 10:07 am

      That is a nice one Amanda 🙂 We all need our own mantras that work for us, that help us keep going when the drama queen wants to take over 🙂 That is actually what my next post will be about 😉

      1. Amanda

        Amanda

        July 13, 2016 at 7:41 am

        Cool! I’ll look forward to reading it. 🙂

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