How I Learned to Love Myself(ie)
Once upon a time, I used to live under the belief that all pictures of me were horrible.
As a result, I almost never shared them.
It wasn´t that I was unhappy with how I looked. Rather, pictures never seemed to turn out like I expected them and I felt they usually showed me at my very worst moments.
I used to have my eyes closed. Or often my face in a grin, as I was usually laughing.
For some reason, I thought that was unfeasible.
I wanted to look perfect. Whatever that means.
Then, I made a wonderful friend. And somehow, she got pictures of these “worst moments” and shared them with the world!
Me laughing my ass off. Me with my double chin and eyes squeezed closed.
Yes, this is me laughing. Laughing with papaya. Laughing at the boat.
Basically, laughing all the time.
And even though this was how I looked, most of the time, I really disliked those pictures!
Retrospectively, I wondered: “What was it that I actually disliked about them? Being myself? Being happy? Laughing?”
Ultimately, these pictures show joy!
So much joy. Today, I can´t help but smile when I look at them.
So I practiced. I took pictures that were a little different then the ones I usually posted. And then I posted them. With a huge deep breath of “this is me!” and a smile on my face.
Since I started sharing these photos, I have a growing collection of photos of me that I absolutely love.
Photos that capture the joy in the moment.
Photos that show me how I truly am.
Do you believe that I suddenly got some magical photogenic powers, that made my pictures so much better? That I finally learned how to pose??
NO. I will tell you it is a waste of time if you think that’s the magic answer.
I know that loving these pictures now has absolutely nothing to do with skills, or that these pictures are any better then the ones I took years ago.
I know that I do not see the world as it is. I see the world as I choose to see it.
For so long, I decided that pictures of me would look bad before I even saw them.
I would only share the ones that pleasantly surprised me.
Now, however, I have decided that I look amazing.
As a result, pictures of me feel a bit more amazing.
Pictures that radiate joy and happiness – and sometimes double chins and tiny eyes!
I´ve even decided that I can look awesome hugging my Kitchen-aid!
So, tell me again – why do you think this is?
I think that it’s because I know that, when I love myself and feel good in my own skin, I will also love the pictures taken of me!
That those pictures are showing someone that is truly happy with the way she looks.
I´d like to end this little run down of pictures of me with the wise words of Emma Watson:
“Feeling beautiful has nothing to do with what you look like, I promise.”
So choose to feel beautiful. And things will start to change, slow and steady ❤