Motherhood & Baby Pregnancy

The Bad Yogi Birth Story

Whew, finally! I’ve been working on writing this since we got home over a week ago, but it was definitely a process to get out!

Here goes…

For the entire duration of my pregnancy, I had a very clear image of what kind of birth I wanted to have: natural but in a hospital. I pictured serenity and power and all of my years of yoga and meditation culminating there to allow me to have a super empowering, zen experience. We hired a doula as well to help make that happen, and if it weren’t for Adrien’s nerves about it, I probably would have opted for a home birth too.

In the end, a home birth wouldn’t have been possible, and almost nothing went according to my original plan. I thought I’d get everything I wanted with all the visualization and meditation I did on it, but the universe had other plans… Theo had other plans! Even so, I had the most awesome, positive birth and have been SOOO excited to share the story with you!

***There’s ZERO fear mongering here, so if you’re prepping for your own birth, rest assured this is a totally positive experience.***

This was one of those things in life that reminded me how overrated control can be. We don’t always get what we imagine, but that doesn’t have to be a bad thing. It can be just as great as your original plan if you’re willing to let go and be a passenger rather than holding on to the need to be a stubborn, forceful pilot. That’s a lesson that comes up for me in life over and over, so I guess it’s really no surprise it showed up here too.

Alright, enough suspense! Let’s get to it, shall we? ☺️

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On August 3rd at 3am on the dot, I got up to pee after 3 hours of sleep. When I got back in bed, I felt a huge gush of water which continued as I quickly rushed back into the bathroom to clean myself up. I started shaking in disbelief, looked in the mirror & told myself: oh my god, my water broke! I’m having a baby today!

I knew contractions could start immediately or be on a bit of a delay, so I cleaned myself up, woke Adrien, then got back in bed to rest. I knew I’d need the energy because OH MY GOD! I’M HAVING A BABY TODAY! 🤩

We rested and 5am came. 6am came. 9am came. No contractions. I kept checking & my fluid was still clear or pink (both normal) so I wasn’t worried about baby, but I also knew the countdown was on. When your water breaks, you typically have 24 hours to go into active labor, otherwise the hospital will induce you to prevent infection. Once the water breaks, there’s no barrier between baby & the world, so the risk of infection is higher.

August 3rd, 11am:
We’re still at home but it’s crickets on the labor front. We called the hospital to update them & they told me to absolutely come in to be monitored, no negotiation. So we ate breakfast, gathered our things & headed out, excited for the journey ahead because OH MY GOD WE ARE HAVING A BABY TODAY!

11:30am:
We check in & get put in a windowless, very medical, but thankfully temporary room where they hooked me up to the monitor to check on me & baby and eventually came in to see how far dilated I was.
bad yogi birth story12:30pm:
I was 1cm. I was disappointed but not surprised. Part of me was hoping I’d be one of those unicorn moms who felt no pain and magically dilated to like 8 centimeters without even realizing it 🤣 …but NO. bad yogi birth story1:30pm:
After some more waiting around in that same room, my anxiety started climbing. Almost 12 hours had passed with no signs of labor starting & I knew what that could potentially mean: induction. And induction was the beginning of everything I didn’t want. I’d planned for & visualized a beautiful natural birth & I was terrified about that experience being threatened. Adrien kept reminding me to let go & let my body work because of course, if I’m super tense & rigid, how is my body supposed to feel safe enough to relax and open? I was trying SO hard to do just that, but man it was hard. I cried on and off most of the afternoon because I was already feeling so discouraged. Luckily Adrien was there to keep the mood light and show me how to use the birth props 😂bad yogi birth story3pm:
They officially admit us, bring us up to a more permanent room with a GORGEOUS view & start me on a mild antibiotic to prevent infection. My anxiety settled in as the first of many of my preferences was compromised. I did NOT want to be stuck to an IV and now I needed one to get medicine every 6 hours. But at least some contractions finally started so Adrien started keeping track of them. They were irregular but distracting enough to make me pause and breathe through each one and intense enough that I couldn’t sleep through them, making rest difficult. I was hopeful that things would pick up but somewhere inside, I was still afraid that hope was just wishful thinking…
bad yogi birth storySide note:
You may or may not know, but once your water breaks, you’re basically a faucet that’s been left on until the baby is born; the amniotic fluid leaks constantly. I was wearing ginormous pads to catch the water that had to be changed about every 2 hours. So I was essentially sitting in what felt like a wet diaper from 3am on the 3rd until baby was finally born. Just a little fun fact I wanted to share 😉

Through the rest of that afternoon on August 3rd & into the evening…
I was having manageable but irregular contractions. They weren’t super painful, but they woke my up in the night every time one hit. I only got about 3 hours of sleep again but was hopeful it would be sufficient rest to allow my body to do what it needed to do. Also, I can’t forget to tell you that another reason I couldn’t sleep that night was because the most stubborn tonsillitis ever was still lingering, so my congestion & cough were both keeping me awake because breathing was tough. That combined with contractions was not the most fun I’d ever had!

August 4th, 6am:
After little sleep, I got up around 6am frustrated & discouraged. Over 24 hours passed since my water broke, contractions hadn’t increased, I was very tired after only getting 3 hours of sleep a night for 2 nights in a row, I was STILL fighting off the rest of my cold symptoms, & my anxiety was in full swing because now I was REALLY feeling the need to get the show on the road. I was SO upset that morning. I cried when the midwife came to check on me, I cried when the nurse came to check on me, I cried to Adrien about wanting this to just HAPPEN already. He totally got where I was coming from, but was a rock solid pinnacle of calm, as usual, reminding me that there IS an end in sight, but I needed to relax. I tried everything, even some gentle yoga…
bad yogi birth storyAll day I was in what felt like early labor. Contractions were irregular but intense enough that they couldn’t be ignored. I was getting tired, both physically and emotionally. Our doula suggested reflexology as it had worked for several of her other moms. Sounded amazing to me, so we called her referral who came directly to the hospital and worked on me for almost TWO HOURS. The most miraculous thing was that literally ALL the swelling in my feet and ankles disappeared, but true active labor still didn’t start.
bad yogi birth storyAugust 4th, 3pm:
Now it’s been 36 hours since my water broke. We called my doctor to see what he thought would be best, so he came up to check me & was super positive about my progress but still only 2cm. He knew what my wishes were and supported them, so he was fully willing to let me go to 48 hours & give my body a chance to let active labor begin naturally which he thought was likely to happen. He also wasn’t worried because both baby & I were doing great in terms of our vitals.

He did give the option of induction & told me 2 important pieces of information: if I chose induction on the 4th, I could go down to delivery & choose my room because it was a very slow day. All the midwives would be available to help & the vibe down there was generally peaceful & quiet. If I reached that 48 hour mark & HAD to get induced on the 5th, he had 4 scheduled c-sections plus whatever situations came up spontaneously. In that case I wouldn’t know which room I’d get (could have ended up in the room we had when we first checked in to be monitored) & of course everybody will be much busier. He was completely comfortable with me waiting & I felt zero pressure to choose induction, but I was glad he shared that info with me because I knew I needed to call it: take it up to 48 hours and see what happens, or go for the induction now.

This is NOT a choice I wanted to be faced with. I was SO upset at this point and SO disappointed in the fact that my perfect plan was so far away from happening.

August 4th, 3:30pm:
The cervical check must have activated something because at this point my contractions were 6 mins apart & moderate. We thought active labor might be starting naturally soon but I still wanted to fully commit to a decision. Adrien asked me a pivotal question: am I making my decisions from my ego or am I making my decisions according what would make me happiest & most comfortable?

That hadn’t even crossed my mind. But I walked into this birth experience with such a rigid idea of what “needed” to happen that I’d lost track of what I was doing in the first place: I WAS GOING TO HAVE A BABY. I’d been so focused on the kind of birth I wanted that I’d completely detached from the reality of what was I doing here.

So I took a step back & mentally freed myself from the confines of my original plan. If I looked at this from a relaxed perspective where I didn’t NEED to control the “how”, what would I do?

I honestly didn’t think I had it in me to go another sleepless night of moderate contractions with very slow or no progress to show for it. I didn’t think I had it in me to wake up & need to be scheduled for an induction even after feeling like my body was working (contractions). And I really didn’t think I had it in me to do that in an environment that was busy & chaotic.

August 4th, 4pm:
With all that in mind, I decided to be induced that evening rather than waiting another 11 hours & hoping something would change. As quickly as I decided, we were ready to go! They walked us down to delivery, stopping along the way to pause for contractions which were still manageable. I was able to have the most beautiful delivery room with 180* of sea views, lots of space and props, too. As soon as we got down there, I started stalling a little because I wanted to be checked again before actually starting the Syntocin (European version of Pitocin). I was checked again & there was no change so onward we went. We started with the lowest dose & waited for it to kick in…

Snacks, water, music, pads, socks, fan, & some evian spray to help keep me cool. We had a whole arsenal & I used every single thing– they were ALL useful.

bad yogi birth storyThings ramped up almost immediately. Contractions increased in frequency and intensity but I was managing them well with breath and movement. My favorite place to be for most of the time I labored was on the birth ball with my arms hanging on these fabric swings from the ceiling.bad yogi birth storySide note: 
Let’s actually talk about what contractions feel like for a second. Energetically, contractions feel like a true wave. You feel one coming on, it builds slowly, peaks, & then tapers off. It’s a gradual rise of pressure & tightening that begins in the lower front part of your pelvis/pubic area, slowly crawls up your belly, & wraps around your back. As they get more intense, they come on quicker, stronger, & feel like you’re getting sucked into a tornado. But the beauty and intelligence of labor is that between each contraction which lasts about 1-2 minutes, you get a break. That break is NORMAL. Silent. Zero sensation except relief. Those breaks start off nice & big, like 5-10 minutes, but they gradually get shorter, like 1-2 minutes, and that’s one way you know things are moving forward.

Things I kept telling myself that WORKED to stay calm and present:
– Ride the wave. Don’t fight it.
– I welcome each contraction instead of resisting it.
– I’m excited for each one because each one is progress.
– Each one is one down & I never have to do again.
– Be a rag doll.
– Each contraction is a wave of power, not pain.

As the intensity picked up, I managed to stay relaxed, open, & fully calm. I felt like all of these mantras were helping me get through it. After a couple hours of more intense contractions, they came in to check me again.

3cm.

WHAT. THE. F*CK.
They told me the intensity of my contractions should indicate more progress, but my cervix was just moving a slowly. I could choose to sit here at this level of Syntocin & potentially labor for hours longer, OR I could increase my dose to hopefully push things along a bit quicker.

I looked at Adrien who told me he supported whatever I wanted to do. I looked at my doula who said it was totally up to me. They told me they’d double my dose but that didn’t necessarily mean the pain would double, so I accepted, still excited to keep this ball rolling.
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August 4th, ~7pm:
Here’s where time gets fuzzy…

We doubled my dose & I powered on.

From here I can honestly say that the intensity, frequency, and yes, power, most definitely doubled if not tripled. I was still staying connected to my breath, welcoming each one, & most importantly feeling the sensation of my contractions change.

Now it felt like all of what I described above but with an added detail: the “peak” of each one brought with it the feeling that a bowling ball was being forced down against my tailbone from the inside. The pressure was enormous, & now I was feeling more pain in my back than anywhere else. Despite the back labor, my doula kept reminding me that the feeling in my tailbone was exactly what we wanted; it meant baby was descending well & putting the necessary pressure on my cervix to open.

That little explanation helped keep me calm because I felt like my body was doing exactly what it needed to do. Knowing that made ALL the difference in the world because it meant the pain was PURPOSEFUL. I could live with that.

So I kept visualizing that exact process. Welcoming it, not resisting, and allowing my body to do what it knew how to do. Throughout all of this, Adrien was amazing, by the way. He was encouraging me, keeping me hydrated, fanning me with a little handheld fan because I was so hot, & handing me tissues every 2 minutes because YES, I was still sick & coughing & blowing my insanely congested nose the whole time. I’ll tell you what, laboring with a blocked nose makes things a little tougher 😆 I only knew after the fact how stressed he was watching me go through this process. I could have guessed he would be, but was blind to it during because he was such a rock.

Anyway, around this stage I started getting emotional. I’m not even sure why! It was such an intense experience it made it impossible to be anything other than hyper-present. It was all SO real & I couldn’t believe I was doing this… I couldn’t believe I was about to become a mom. I couldn’t believe this huge moment was right there & barreling towards me. It felt unbelievable and unstoppable. After each contraction I felt like I needed to cry. Not because of pain or discomfort, just the sheer intensity of this whole experience and what it all meant.

Things continued to progress because there was definitely no slowing things down now.

All my breathing, letting go, & welcoming each contraction felt like they were paying off. The intensity steadily increased BIG TIME & at one point it felt like things really fired up a notch. Suddenly it was like each peak now came with this uncontrollable need to bear down. Yes, “bear down” like when you have to go to the bathroom. It was like I wasn’t even in control of my body anymore. It was doing its own thing. *I* wasn’t bearing down, my body was just DOING it. I heard my doula tell Adrien it sounded like I was getting close to the end. Contractions were LONG, like 2+ minutes & extremely close together, like 30-seconds apart. I wasn’t getting long enough breaks given the intensity of what I was experiencing, so we knew things were approaching the grand finale…

Soon after:
Someone came to check my progress which took forever because they couldn’t catch a break between my contractions. I heard someone say, “these are really long…” at least 5 different times throughout the later hours of the night.

Finally the nurse was able to check me (though it was during a contraction— the WORST) & apparently looked at our doula with a little concern.

“4cm, maybe 5,” she said.

Everybody was confused because my contractions were so intense the machine wasn’t even registering their strength anymore. All signs were pointing towards the end but my body just wasn’t dilating.

They suggested increasing my dose again and I accepted. Without it, they told me I could be laboring at this intensity for hours more. With an increase, it might get more intense but it would probably be less time. Not an enviable choice, but I chose the faster option…

Again, time is fuzzy, but this is where the intensity & power became totally unmanageable for me mentally & physically. Contractions went from feeling like what I understood as contractions to something that felt more like an attack. Remember how I said contractions come in waves? Even the intense ones do. But what followed that increase of Syntocin felt like an assault on my body every 30 seconds. There was no build up, no slow down, no rest. Each contraction came on like a sucker punch at full intensity. My entire body felt like it was bearing down. Every single one barreled through me like a freight train and each time my body expelled literally everything inside of it. Yes, everything. If you had told me how many times I’d pee uncontrollably in front of so many people I wouldn’t have believed you 😂 Literally every single contraction. And I was still losing amniotic fluid, so suffice it to say, this was a very messy process! I think at one point I apologized to someone (not even sure who) who was behind me cleaning up.

After laboring at this level for another couple hours (according to Adrien), I’d had enough. I cracked. My mind spun out. I needed to know I was making progress because I couldn’t do this for much longer. Someone rushed in to check me again.

“5, maybe 6cm…”

I sobbed, apologized (again, not even sure to who!) and begged for an epidural. My mind couldn’t handle it anymore. The progress was too slow, I knew I wouldn’t have the energy to make it to the end without some assistance. I still needed some strength to push this baby out & I was getting nervous I wouldn’t have enough on reserve.

Thank God it was so slow because the anesthesiologist got down there in minutes. The only problem was that at this point it was SO difficult to administer because my contractions weren’t breaking. The 15-30 seconds I had “between” was pure back labor. So that means I’d have a contraction at full intensity, and then that “bowling ball” of pressure in my back and tailbone would just sit there in the “in between” moments. I had no breaks. I couldn’t help but cry and scream basically through this entire phase.

There was a mantra I heard about contractions very early on in my preparation that I liked a lot: “my contractions can’t be bigger than me because they come from me.” In my case, I felt like all of mine were artificial because of the amount of Syntocin I was on. They WERE more powerful than me because they were being brought on by something external. It wasn’t my body’s natural rhythm, and I just couldn’t sync them up with my breath anymore. I’d fully lost control and was ready for this to end.

The anesthesiologist & nurse who assisted were absolute ANGELS. They were so patient with me & encouraging & FAST. This was difficult because to get an epidural & NOT risk paralysis, you need to be completely still while they administer it. You can imagine how hard that was at this point!

Side note:
I don’t want this to scare anyone about to give birth who wants an epidural. Typically you’d get it well before you reached this point of intensity so it would be MUCH easier to administer and it’s no big deal. The pain from the epidural is also no big deal. It pinched but was over super fast and they use a local anesthesia to numb the area before the needle actually goes in. And of course you don’t see anything. The whole procedure probably took all of 10 minutes, so the discomfort from that is hardly even worth mentioning– I promise. 

But back to my dumbass decision to wait so long 😜… I’m sobbing & screaming through each contraction while trying to find the strength to stay still. I wasn’t very successful but the doctor DID manage to administer the epidural anyway. He started me on a half dose per my request to see if that would ease things enough to give me relief, but after 30 minutes it didn’t even touch the intensity. As I’m writing this, I genuinely wonder how many people heard me laboring in the halls 😅 I HOPE the department was as slow as they said because I probably would have scared the entire floor of laboring moms half to death with my dramatics 😂

The anesthesiologist came back to increase the dose which finally worked & I felt sweet relief. I could still feel the pressure of each contraction & I could move my legs, they were just heavy feeling. But I was beyond happy to be able to breathe comfortably while still feeling my lower half. One big reason why I didn’t want an epidural was because it freaked me out to be essentially paralyzed. Luckily it didn’t feel like that! It just dulled the pain, but I could still feel when a contraction came, if that makes sense. I thought I’d be super disappointed in myself for getting one, but I honestly wasn’t. I felt proud of what I’d done on my own up until that point, and I knew this was the right choice for me because I’d still need my strength and energy to push which I was running out of FAST.

Around midnight, August 5th:
Within minutes of the epidural kicking in, I fell asleep for about an hour which felt amazing. After I woke up, the nurse came in to check my progress and I was at 10 cm and ready to push! FINALLY. I couldn’t believe it. I’d heard that a lot of times an epidural can speed things up because your body and mind can relax which makes things progress much more quickly. I was excited, but also super nervous! I couldn’t believe it was time to push and meet my baby… finally! After almost 48 hours!

They prepped me and prepped the room and by the time we were all ready, the people in the room were just my doctor, nurse, doula, and Adrien. They kept the room dark except for one essential light to keep an eye on baby. Despite this being a very traditional “medical” environment, I was amazed at how peaceful and relaxed it felt. My doctor is the epitome of calm and should totally teach all doctors about bedside manner. He’s extremely warm and friendly but still authoritative enough that you feel like you’re in good hands.

Nobody yelled at me to push, nobody rushed the process, and I was allowed to move in sync with the rhythm of each contraction.

Here’s where it got a little intense again but I actually had no idea until after the fact…

August 5th, ~12:40am:
The first couple times I pushed, the doctor said I pushed really well, but the baby didn’t move. So we waited for the next contraction which took FIVE MINUTES to come on, regrouped and tried again. This time he moved down 3 centimeters. Not much. I pushed with all my might a few more times and he moved down a bit further, but the doctor told me he was actually stuck. Super calmly he suggested using the ventouse (kind of like a small plunger) to help bring him down. He assured me it was gentle and while he knew I preferred no interventions, he suggested this. I could feel the INSANELY uncomfortable pressure of baby sitting super low, so I was ready to accept the “help” haha 😉

Side note:
Even with an epidural (in my experience), I still felt a large part of the sensation of baby coming down the birth canal and crowning. I felt the insane stretching, the pressure, the everything. It was definitely not comfortable, but it wasn’t painful either. Honestly, “intense” is the best word for it. It felt like exactly what it was: a human head is emerging from your vagina, lol! I mean, it’s stretching your body to the MAX but to me, it didn’t feel like my body couldn’t do it, it just felt like something it had never done before. I’ll say it 5,000 more times I’m sure, but it’s just amazing what our bodies can do. 

ANYWAY, he used the ventouse twice and announced that baby had a lot of brown hair! I got SO excited I pushed even harder for the remaining pushes and before I knew it, his head was out! I was honestly having a great time pushing 😆 I felt good, strong, capable, and like I was being well taken care of. His shoulders were a challenge too but once those were out, the doctor told me to “reach down!” and take him, which I did. I’ll never forget how warm Theo’s tiny little body was against mine… it was hands-down the very coolest thing I’ve ever experienced.

What did I think when I saw him for the first time?
Lots of women have described the feeling of instant overwhelming love. Like they’d die for this person. I didn’t feel that. I felt in absolute AWE that I just birthed a human (he looked SO BIG yet so tiny at the same time), but it was a slow, gradual connection for me. Not that slow, I guess, but it took the next few days to feel connected to him, I think. And it’s still evolving and growing! The instant thought was just “WOW! THAT WAS AMAZING! LOOK WHAT WE DID!”

I only pushed for about 30 minutes which ended up being a really good thing.

What I didn’t know was happening during this whole pushing phase was actually a bit more dramatic. When they told me he hadn’t moved down after those initial pushes, it was because he was stuck. And the way he was stuck compressed his chest or face so that he couldn’t breathe. So Theo’s heart rate plummeted in seconds from a normal, healthy rate of 130-160 to 66!

Adrien told me it fell FAST, like within a few seconds, and the doctor and nurse looked at each other with concern, but kept it to themselves to keep the space (and me!) calm. And with such long breaks between contractions, it was a little extra stressful because I couldn’t push without one. Once he got un-stuck from that point, he got stuck again. This is when the ventouse were suggested, and this time Theo’s heart rate spiked to beyond 180 because he was getting stressed. They needed to get him out fast, but never once made me feel stressed or scared. Like I said, I actually had no idea any of this was happening.

Had we not been able to get him unstuck, I definitely would have ended up with an emergency c-section, so I am eternally grateful for the skill and patience of my doctor.

Adrien, on the other hand, told me later how terrified he was. His exact words were that he wasn’t sure whether he needed to cry or throw up!

One surprising thing about the whole experience was how calm and present I felt. I’d heard so many horror stories of hospital births feeling so negative and “medical” that women felt totally disconnected from the experience itself. In some of the books I read, I also heard the epidural or any medicine would make me feel kind of out of it. This was 1,000% NOT the case. I felt fully “there,” fully present, and immersed in the experience. The memory of the pain have already faded somewhat, but the birth itself will be forever engrained in my mind and heart. It was not only the COOLEST thing I’ve ever experienced, but also the most beautiful, magical, powerful, empowering one too.

And all of these things I read also said that the epidural can make baby seem “out of it” too. SO NOT TRUE. Theo came out with his eyes wide open, looking around, and FULLY alert. He took a breath super soon after and cried his big ol’ cry until he warmed up.

Even at the most intense moments of labor and pushing, I never felt afraid or like I was unsafe. I felt exhausted, but never afraid.

Once he was born we had about 2 hours of skin-to-skin. No tests, no interaction with baby from anyone else, just a bit of care for mom. I had two small, internal superficial tears so that was first up. And NO, I didn’t feel them happen either! The doctor said I didn’t technically need stitches, and a midwife at a home birth probably wouldn’t do them, but it would burn when I peed if I went without. So he was going to do them to minimize my discomfort. No problem for me. They removed the epidural drip, antibiotics, and everything else. Once that was over, they had Adrien bring Theo away to do the initial tests and vitamin K while they finished cleaning me up.

The epidural wore off quickly, so I definitely noticed the “work” going on down there, but it wasn’t painful at all. Just something I was aware of and curious about which is probably why I was aware of it at all in the first place, haha. bad yogi birth story

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Theres nothing quite like watching your husband become a Dad… when I saw him walk in I burst into tears, haha.

They brought us back up to our recovery room a bit later and left us to it as a family of 3… Adrien took this picture and about a billion others! Very grateful for a skilled husband and a good tripod!
Bad yogi birth storySide note:
You lose about 500ml of blood in a normal vaginal birth. So in the hours and first day after, I looked SUPER pale. Like my lips were gray I was so pale! I felt totally fine, just tired, but it was definitely noticeable! Can you tell here?! 

August 5th, 5am:
We only managed to get a couple hours of sleep because we were both just completely caught up in conversation, re-living the experience from each of our perspectives. We may have gone to sleep around 5am, if I remember correctly… but before that is when I learned about everything that happened when Theo got stuck and heard how Adrien perceived the whole birth. It was so crazy to hear how differently we each experienced the whole thing! He was so worried and stressed seeing me in pain and not being able to do anything about it. Compounding that was how worried he was about Theo at the end there, too.

That was the first page of this new chapter and even though it took Adrien a while to come down from the trauma of witnessing it, we’ve been settling into this new routine every day since. Well, we’ve been *trying* to settle into a routine 😉 Newborns aren’t great at routine, in case you didn’t know!

Even though my birth deviated entirely from my original plan, as you can tell, I still have NOTHING but AMAZING things to say about it. It will forever remain one of the most awesome things I’ll ever do. I think if we can be fluid with our intentions, everything becomes more enjoyable. In retrospect I realized that even if I had a home birth, they would have sent me to the hospital anyway 48 hours after my water broke, if not sooner. Theo probably still would have been stuck & that would have required some intervention. So thank GOD all of this happened the way it did! This is one of those times I can honestly say that everything happened for a reason and I’m beyond happy about all of it.

From here, I’ll be documenting this 4th trimester as well. There’s SO much to share and talk about, but I wanted to get this birth story “on paper.” I wanted it for myself to always look back on, but I also know how much I enjoy reading other people’s birth stories so I thought I’d share with you all too.

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Some questions you had!

1. Did you poop?!
I have no idea! I may have but no one told me and I didn’t ask, haha! But it’s true what they say– that will be the LAST thing on your mind in the moment!

2. What were the best/worst things your midwife/doula did?
Best was just having her there because I don’t think I would have made it as far as I did without her. Plus, she was a huge comfort for Adrien whose stress probably would have been out of control even more had it not been for her. She was super reassuring and helped me quickly change positions to ones that were more helpful in pain management and conducive to a better delivery. I hesitate to say this was “least” helpful because it didn’t bother me, it just also didn’t matter. She told Adrien to stay quiet rather than talk to me so I could focus. I enjoy his presence so him talking to me didn’t bother me, but it also didn’t bother me that he was quiet.

3. Did you notice the work going on down there after delivery?
Yes, but it wasn’t painful. And to be honest I only noticed because I was HYPER aware of everything even though I had Theo on me. I was in awe of him but also still curious what the doctor was doing! So my attention went in and out between being solely on Theo and also curiously checking out what was going on with me, haha.

4. Do you think the pain of labor is manageable? 
I’d be VERY curious to experience birth again without Syntocin/Pitocin just to compare labor pains. I’ve heard women say it’s way worse with, but I’ve also heard some say that wasn’t the case for them. It truly varies woman to woman and we’d all respond differently to that medication, so what’s true for me may differ for you. I’m making the assumption that labor is labor; it’s going to be difficult no matter how you come to it. But my doula told me after the fact that only about 15% of women who are induced end up delivering naturally because usually it becomes too intense with the medication they have to use. So take that for whatever it’s worth! Maybe natural IS more manageable (???) though that certainly won’t mean it’s “easy.”

TO CONCLUDE (FINALLY 😜)
Even though none of the details of my birth happened the way I’d hoped, the FEELING I wanted to capture was 100% there. I felt present and connected and taken care of and respected. And we were ALL healthy and well which is always the ultimate goal, right? All of this combined I think is why I still feel so insanely positive about how it all happened.

Over to you! Thank you so much for sticking around and reading! <3 Feel free to drop questions in the comments & I’ll come back to answer 🙂 

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    Erin Gardner

    August 18, 2019 at 7:18 am

    Thank you for sharing your story! I loved sharing mine post birth. This has inspired me to write it and put in my baby’s book. I’d love for her to read my experience one of these days.

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    Cheryl

    August 18, 2019 at 7:23 am

    I’ve been waiting to read your birth story since you mentioned writing about it – loved it!! I’ve been following you for years now and I was so excited when I found out you were expecting as I just gave birth to my first a few months ago! I can relate to so much of your experience, especially how you didn’t feel that instant connection to your son when he was first born, it took me a few days just to get over the disbelief that I birthed this tiny little human and that he’s all mine! Now that mine is a few months old now, I seriously love him exponentially more each day as he develops his own little personality (so cliché right?)! I love how honest you were about the “not-so-beautiful” (lol) details like tearing and pooping 😂 There’s so many things I didn’t know about birth until I experienced it myself, I wish women spoke more freely of the birth process and less of the fear-mongering discussions you so often hear, as I heard many exaggerated, horrifying stories that definitely made me more fearful of birth than was warranted. Giving birth is beautiful, scary and amazing all at once! After going through it I realize how BADASS all the mom’s in my life are and I am now just in awe of every mom I know and meet! Women are absolutely incredible!!💪 Thanks for sharing your story!

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    Katherine Rocha

    August 18, 2019 at 7:36 am

    You are an amazing strong woman. I loved reading all about your birth story. I am so happy for you, Adrien and Theo. You all deserve the best. Thank you for being so honest and true about everything not only including your birth story but everything else. You are such a role model for me, you have definitely helped me over come many obstacles in my life and I am forever grateful for you and the bad yogi community. Can’t wait to see more pictures of Theo and see all of you guys grow as a family of three !!! Congratulations and good luck 💙💙💙

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    Michelle K.

    August 18, 2019 at 7:41 am

    Great job Mommy, Daddy, and baby!!! Wow!! All three of you had an amazing experience. I find it intriguing to hear other mom’s experiences with their birth stories and, honestly, I was surprised to read your first was quite similar to my first (only in terms of how it began; my hospital in the US would not allow me to wait as long to naturally contract. They said once the water breaks, baby HAS to be out in 24hrs and started inducing immediately. It’s very interesting to see how different countries handle the same situation!!). I’ve since had 2 more deliveries and each one is very different and special. It IS truly amazing what our bodies can do!! Thank you for sharing and wishing you and your family more everyday routine and rest (the first month is always a kind of a hazy, delightful struggle) and beautiful memories!!!

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    Sophia

    August 18, 2019 at 7:50 am

    Thank you! So grateful that all of your family is doing well. Nothing in the world compares to childbirth. Blessings to you all! Love, love, love!

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    Anne

    August 18, 2019 at 7:51 am

    Thank you for sharing your story. It brought back memories of my own two deliveries. Both were very different from one another. Congratulations!!

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    Katie

    August 18, 2019 at 7:56 am

    Thank you so much for sharing your story! I also had pitocin and found the contractions really intense with them so opted for an epidural after 48 hours of labour! Question: did anyone talk to you about Theo’s position? My son was posterior (sunny side up) which caused the back labour and slow dilation. My son never flipped or descended enough so I had him via C-section (which also wasn’t as horrible as I had envisioned). It’s amazing what women can do regardless of the way baby is born!

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      Erin Motz

      August 19, 2019 at 8:50 am

      he was sort of turned to the side at one point so i bet that’s why! i’ve heard a lot of women say their c-section was way less awful than they imagined too, which is nice o hear!

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    Sarah

    August 18, 2019 at 7:57 am

    Sounds amazing—way to go, all of you! My first birth was similar…although it wasn’t nearly as long! I went in educated, but with a purposeful “let’s see how this goes” mentality…which has carried me through parenting up to this point. 😂 Enjoy your family. Theo is a miracle. ❤️

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    Patricia (Papaya)

    August 18, 2019 at 7:59 am

    This was the first detailed birth story I read or even heard and it was so interesting (even though I personally don‘t want kids). What a miracle! You did great Erin and Adrien as well and I‘m so happy for you! Lots of love to the three of you!!
    Btw: Why is Adrien also called Thibaud? I always wonder which one is his actual name. 😂

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    Amanda Minaker

    August 18, 2019 at 8:21 am

    Erin,
    We have very similar birth stories so this was a wonderful reminder of the process for our oldest. We have three beautiful healthy girls and none of the labors were alike! Still, none were as challenging as that first one. Started on a Thursday and she was born on Saturday… let the true adventure begin! Welcome to Motherhood, Bad Yogi! ❤️🙏

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    Julie

    August 18, 2019 at 8:28 am

    Love reading birth stories so thank you for sharing yours. It’s awesome when your partner is freaking out but only internally 😆 my husband was the same way. When I read about how warm Theo’s body was on you, that’s when the tears came, because I remember feeling my babies on me for the first time ❤️ Enjoy this newborn phase; it goes by too quickly. And this saying is so true: the days are long, but the years are short. My baby is almost 10 years old already 😢

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    Brooke Harper

    August 18, 2019 at 8:32 am

    Thank you for sharing! I loved reading about it. It sounds like you had quite an experience. It’s so true that every women’s labor is different. Heck even my two labors were different! I ended up having an emergency c with my first and was blessed to find a doctor who let me do a vbac (vaginal after c) for my second. Glad you guys are doing well. I love watching y’all experience everything.

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    Melanie Gibson

    August 18, 2019 at 8:48 am

    Congratulations on the arrival of your mini Bad Yogi! It does sound as if his arrival was rather eventful, but at least a lot of good also came out of it. I recently had my own experience in a hospital and then a rehabilitation facility for almost a month afterwards, and I could totally relate to learning that you are not the one who is in control all of the sudden, even though you have been trying not to be as hard as you thought you could. I was reduced to tears a few times myself because it all seemed like I did not have the capability to do anymore. Once I admitted to myself that my batteries were starting to run low, that is when all kinds of amazing things began to happen that were not my doing. Anyway, congrats again!

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    Becky

    August 18, 2019 at 8:53 am

    Wow! Your birthing room looks amazing! They don’t have that in the States! Congratulations on your beautiful boy. I am happy that you were able to be at peace with your journey even if it didn’t go as planned! I also appreciate you highlighting your husband’s story. That was the biggest complaint my husband had after the birth of our two children, no one (besides me) included his thoughts in our birth experience.

    As an aside, I was induced for my first and had my second natural. I didn’t see any difference in the contractions but you are a lot better prepared for the second one. We definitely had a better handle on the relaxation, meditation aspect of things the second time around!

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    Christina Rogas

    August 18, 2019 at 8:58 am

    Thank you for sharing your birthing story! I was so excited and happy for you and Adrien during this whole journey. Congratulations! ❤️

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    Holly T

    August 18, 2019 at 9:06 am

    Thanks for sharing your story. I enjoyed reading it. Congratulations on baby Theo!

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    Sara

    August 18, 2019 at 9:16 am

    You are amazing! Thank you for sharing your story . Both of my births were completely different and completely different from yours. It is incredible what our bodies can do and the miracle we have because of it. Congratulations to you three!! Wishing you nothing but the best!

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    Crystal Davidson

    August 18, 2019 at 9:18 am

    Thank you for sharing your experience with us! I’m not a mom yet, but this story made me feel like one day I will want to have a baby even though I’ve always been scared about it. So happy for the three of you! Thank you for sharing your little family with us! ❤️❤️❤️

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    Dawn

    August 18, 2019 at 9:27 am

    Thank you for sharing your amazing story. Congratulations. You captured so much of what I felt too. Your story is beautiful. I encourage you to share this story with your son when he is older. ( a shorter version) I would do that every year on the eve of my daughter’s birthday. She came to look forward to it. Enjoy every moment of this journey.

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    Jen

    August 18, 2019 at 9:30 am

    Thank you for sharing! Like you, I am fascinated by other people’s stories and so curious 😊 Both my boys changed my whole birth plan and that was ok. I learned that I have to have a plan going in to satisfy my need to be on control. However, in the moment, I am open and flexible depending on what is really happening. Doesn’t mean the birth plan wasn’t relevant, it’s just important for a different phase of the process. Also, my husband is a paramedic and made most of the decisions (with my preferences in mind) when things got too intense for me. It worked really well for all of us that way because he felt less stress being able to make decisions and I was able to let go when I needed to.

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    Marie-Christine Groleau

    August 18, 2019 at 10:04 am

    Thank you for sharing your story. It is interesting how it is something that happens everyday, everywhere in the world but each baby arrives with their own unique story. To me, when baby and mom are healthy it is a happy story, no matter what happened before. Letting go is part of the experience of being a parent and it starts at birth.

    I also wrote both my kids birth stories to remember every detail and maybe share with them someday.

    I had a very similar story than yours for my son. I was actually on Pitocin for both my kids because it seems my cervics does not respond to contractions. I have crazy contractions (even without Pitocin), but the process remains really slow. But once they put me on Pitocin, I get no breaks between each contactions so I got epidural both times. And then it’s just waiting for the 10 cm mark. For my first, I remember feeling so discouraged and tired and in pain. They used the plunger too to get him out, he was stuck and his heart rate was messed up too.
    My kids are 9 and 5 now. All this feels so far away yet it still I remember it like it was yesterday and it changed me forever in a lot of ways.
    I laughed so hard when you talked about the leaking after the water breaks. I actually asked the nurse if it would stop leaking at some point because I did not know. She told me: when the baby comes out. LOL I was like WHAT ?! How come nobody tells you this 🙂

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    Sarah

    August 18, 2019 at 10:17 am

    I loved everything about this! It was beautifully and honestly written and really captured the depth of your experience. I’m due in 4.5 weeks and this inspired me to make sure I’m making decisions from my heart and not from my ego. I’m pretty sure I held my breath as I read the part about the intensity of your contractions LOL! Glad to hear you are all doing well. I look forward to hearing about the fourth trimester!

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    Emily

    August 18, 2019 at 10:27 am

    Congratulations! I really enjoyed reading yur experience, I related to many parts of your experience. I didn’t need to be induced with my first baby but I waited a long time to get my epidural as well. I’d tried to work through the contractions but they got so intense I couldn’t handle it. But the epidural helped my body dilate and was able to rest. The way you described everything from trying to get an epidural while having intense contractions to the quiet fear/concern of your husband was so relateable. With my second I got my epidural much sooner. I hope you all are settling in a little and enjoying all those baby cuddles, he’s adorable.

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    Petra

    August 18, 2019 at 11:32 am

    Your husband always sounds so wise. Was he trained by Yoda?

    Congratulations on your baby 🙂

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    Sharon L. Kais

    August 18, 2019 at 11:48 am

    Thank you for sharing this insightful and intimate journey. You did a great job and your labor and delivery sounded a lot like mine so I could definitely relate to how you were thinking!!! Baby Theo is such a beautiful baby! Wishing you and Adrien much happiness and love as you raise your son. Xoxo

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    Mary Jane Jakubowski

    August 18, 2019 at 2:31 pm

    What a beautiful birth story. Congratulations again. Love to you, Adrien and Theo.

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    Zahra

    August 18, 2019 at 4:00 pm

    Thank you so much for sharing. Our birth stories are very similar and I’ve grappled with needing the epidural after being induced. Your acceptance of it and positivity is really inspirational. I also love Adrien’s wisdom about the ego. I can so relate. I’ve had so many women tell me contractions feel like a lot of pressure, but that wasn’t my experience. I find your description right before the epidural pretty spot on. Wishing you all the best with your new babe!

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    Amanda L Tall

    August 18, 2019 at 4:35 pm

    Wow, that made me shed a tear! Birth is so hard and yet so wonderful and you explained your experience with such clarity and authenticity! Congratulations on your new little miracle!

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    Lisa Sherratt

    August 18, 2019 at 4:41 pm

    Thank you for sharing your post, I love reading others birth stories, I think mine was similar in length when I wrote it up as I was also in early labour for over two days before things started to ramp up – although my waters broke moments before my daughter arrived earthside!
    I have a question, you said that the nurse checked and you were 10cm and ready to push – did you mean you felt ready to push or that she told you it was time to push? My experience was that I had no choice but to push once I got to that point – nothing could have stopped me and I couldn’t have done anything else if I’d tried – the midwife had just offered to check my dilation again and I tried to get out of the birth pool and couldn’t do anything other than bear down!
    I hope you don’t mind me asking I was just intrigued from the way you wrote it! Also reassuring to know that Theo wasn’t in anyway knocked out by the epidural, that was one of my biggest fears had I needed one.

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    Nicole

    August 18, 2019 at 5:15 pm

    Wow your birth story was amazing! I’m 29+6 today and I have started thinking about birth a lot, and what I plan on doing. I have been told by a lot of mum’s you can plan as much as you want, but 9 times out of 10 it doesn’t go according to plan! When they said that to me, it scared me because I know the one thing I want is to be in control as much as I can when the time comes. But your story has shown me that even though it didn’t go the way you wanted it, you still had a positive experience and both you and baby were well, which is what I will also strive for.
    Thank you again for sharing this story, it has helped me to relax and just let my body do what it was designed to do! 😊

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    Charlene

    August 18, 2019 at 6:19 pm

    Congratulations! I loved reading this, thanks so much for sharing. I wish I had detailed my experiences but reading yours has brought a lot of it back for me. I also felt that birth was the most intense, beautiful, and empowering experience. My first was not induced but the second was. No epidural for either with similar intensity and both very quick (under 6 hours). The sensation of needing to push was the most unbelieveable that I would describe it as almost being thrown upward/forward. I appreciate you describing it all as very positive. I am deeply grateful for my birth experiences and I have felt differently about women and our incredible bodies ever since. I look at every mom with amazement! Best wishes on your parenting journies💖

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    Carmen Mustile

    August 18, 2019 at 6:53 pm

    Congrats dear Erin – to your beautiful family best wishes and blessings for a healthy and wonderful life always together- my daughter will have her first baby at home!! With the doula and midwife- I was very happy to read about your birth experience and you are like a daughter to me. Digitally I have been following your yoga channel….. but not lately, bc
    I live in Italy part of the year and I don’t check my emails often, so I didn’t know you were pregnant but I passed on one of your video to my daughter!! I thought you just wanted to take care of yoga for pregnancy! Anyway I sending hugs to you all! And thank you for sharing!

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    Kathy P

    August 18, 2019 at 7:59 pm

    I loved reading this! Thank you for sharing 🙂

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    Lisa

    August 18, 2019 at 8:40 pm

    Thanks for sharing your story with everyone!! It really is a strong and wonderful experience. Congrats on your little one.

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    Mary Witcher

    August 18, 2019 at 10:27 pm

    Thank you for sharing your story. I look forward to further updates. My first labor was 17 years ago, but I still remember it like it was yesterday. I wanted a natural birth as well. While I was pregnant my mother shared that all five of her labor and deliveries were natural. But my stubborn son would not let that happen. He was more than happy to stay where he was. I had to be induced and have my water broken. As they ramped up the pitocin, the contractions were coming with little to no break in between. That’s when I asked for the epidural as well. I was also able to get a nap and woke up to being 10cm. It took an hour of pushing because, well, he had a big head. But now, 17 years later, he’s still my buddy and the fact that his birth didn’t go as planned doesn’t matter.

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    Tiffany

    August 19, 2019 at 8:32 am

    Reading this made me think about my births and how different they were. I had a natural with my daughter, c-section with my son due to placenta previa. I also felt I didn’t connect fully with neither of them until I was home and was able to regroup and soak in the fact I gave birth. I was young when I had my daughter (17) giving birth so young was the scariest part for me but the whole birth process was not as bad as I thought it went surprisingly smooth but the contradictions were no joke I was about to break the handles on the bed. Oh but from the beginning of pregnancy with the my son was tough I was sick throughout the WHOLE pregnancy. Nausea, pain, pressure, emotional rollercoaster I had it all, when the doc told me I had placenta previa I fell into a depression, I didn’t want a c- section, I didn’t want a scar I heard terrible recovery stories I was scared but got through it. Moving forward to the day of having him a month early. Scared as hell but the doctors were great! Recovery was painful but us women can withstand ALOT!!!!!! Welcome to motherhood one of the toughest most empowering jobs you’ll ever have. CONGRATULATIONS!!!! Team THEO

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    Danica

    August 19, 2019 at 9:18 am

    Your birth story is so great and super positive!!

    I’ve always been curious about expelling the placenta. Is it true that it’s similar to labor?

    Also, are you handling Theo with just you and Adrien or have some help from family members?

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      Erin Motz

      August 19, 2019 at 1:42 pm

      NOT AT ALL! It literally felt like nothing. It’s WAY smaller and also completely soft, unlike a baby, haha. I barely noticed it! The only reason I did notice was because I had to give a little push to get it out. But yeah, absolutely no big deal at all. Zero pain pr discomfort.

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    Monica

    August 19, 2019 at 9:59 am

    Wow. Thank you for sharing this Erin. As a pregnant women currently, reading your posts and following your journey and helped immensely at calming some of my fears and realities of childbirth. I’m sure you are helping many women out there. But thank you for helping me!

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    Lindsey

    August 19, 2019 at 10:10 am

    I loved reading this! Sounds like an amazing and beautiful experience.

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    Maaike

    August 19, 2019 at 10:42 am

    Congrats Erin! Thank you so much for sharing! I’ve been following your IG, and remember when you said the thing about your contractions not being bigger than you because they come from you. And I remember even then not recognising this mantra at all, because my labour was induced as well and the pain did not feel manageable AT ALL. Unlike you, my body responded like MAD to the medicin and I had a super fast labour – which obviously does have it’s advantages – and I was already at 3 cm bc they really induced it from the start. But every contraction felt like an out of body experience, and I was so grateful to get the Epidural to at least make it possible to breathe…

    Fun fact about contractions being like waves: in Dutch, the word for contractions being as back to back the way you seem to have had it, is a contraction storm! So happy for you that you have weathered it so gracefully! Enjoy every minute with your precious little sailor!

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    Bridget F

    August 19, 2019 at 10:58 am

    I loved reading your story! Thank you so much for sharing with us and being so open and real about the whole experience. Congratulations to you, Adrien and Theo! ❤️

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    Shannon Mahaney

    August 19, 2019 at 12:54 pm

    What an incredible birth story! I teared up a few times reading this especially the part where you reached for Theo. Thank you for being so honest with us. As someone who is TTC, this post really makes me feel good about the birthing process.

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    Karlavazquezf

    August 19, 2019 at 1:54 pm

    We are sisters of birth story!!! Same exact story… except I was I induced for medical reasons (high presssure)!!! congratulations!! And thanks for the existence of doulas and doctors supporting natural birth!! 👏🏻👏🏻

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    Kate B

    August 19, 2019 at 2:14 pm

    That’s amazing! I’m so glad that, despite it not going exactly how you envisioned, you had such a positive experience. Labor and birth are insane!
    And can we talk about that labor room?! That was incredible! I mean, the view 😍, but also all of the props and things that were available were really great.
    I’m personally happy to hear your account of induction. My doctor suggested that I’d need to induce with subsequent children because the speed of my first labor put me at real risk for a car or home birth in the future 😜. So, I’m very interested in experiences with how induction went with others.
    Lastly, I think the continued leaking after your water breaks may depend on where it breaks at. I guess the sack can break anywhere, so you may have a trickle, to full blown gush. Mine broke on a huge contraction, and literally felt like a water balloon was being forced down out of my body before it exploded. Granted, everything was crazy after that, but I don’t recall anything else leaking out after 😂
    Congratulations to you and your husband, and welcome little Theo!!

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    Polly

    August 19, 2019 at 2:28 pm

    Wow. Thank you. I have recently found out I am pregnant and despite for many years knowing that when the time came j would want to be a mum and start a family I have always been terrified by the prospect of birth. I’ve only ever heard people talk about how horrific the pain is and sleepless nights so have been scared to read any real birthing stories through fear of it frightening me even more.

    Reading this changed everything. Thank you so much. Not only do I now feel more positive about what my experience my be like, but also about reading others. Hearing you talk so possitivly about it all (even though it wasn’t as you planned) is just SO empowering!

    One thing which I have spoken with my partner about is how he is unsure how he can prepare for it and what he should expect as there are considerably less resources for the fathers-to-be out there. It would be great to hear how Adrien prepared and managed to stay calm throughout and if he has any tips for the gents.

    Again. Thank you so much.

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      Erin Motz

      August 20, 2019 at 4:04 am

      This is so amazing to hear, thank you! I highly recommend the Positive Birth Company digital pack to prepare… there’s some great sections for partners that I shared with Adrien. Though nothing will FULLY prepare him for the actual experience, it’s helpful to have some of the details beforehand 🙂

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    Christin J Slyngman

    August 19, 2019 at 6:03 pm

    Gaaah! so excited to finally read your birth story! I have 2 girls (ages 3 and 5 now), and both stories are so different!
    That being said,
    I’m so happy for you! Remember everything is just a phase, and there is no such thing as a routine for at least a year (and even then it only comes in stages haha). Labor and delivery are really your first lesson as a mama on how to be a mama: Be flexible, patient, and OK with not knowing what’s gonna happen next. Even with the best-laid plans, your kids will always have other ideas. You grow with them, and that’s so much of the beauty of it! Just enjoy each phase as it comes at you, and LAUGH about everything, rather than get upset. Your attitude towards the hard stuff makes all the difference!
    hugs and love,
    Christin

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    Maria

    August 19, 2019 at 8:34 pm

    Thanks for sharing your birth story! I commend you on the remembering all that detail. Like you i found these fascinating, especially after being through it myself. Congratulations on your beautiful arrival and I’m glad you were able to have a positive experience ith the birth. All the best xo

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    Danielle

    August 19, 2019 at 10:20 pm

    Thank you so much for sharing your story! As I start to think about starting a family, I’ve been struggling because I am afraid of the whole experience. Your openness, pragmatism, and authenticity have been really helpful to my perspective and I know that I will come back to this when I am ready!!

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    Evelyn

    August 19, 2019 at 11:05 pm

    I saw the comments above, your experience was very much like mine and my kiddo was sunny side up. This causes the larger part of the head to present and does not apply well to the cervix. Slows everything way down and there is really not a lot you can do other than try to get gravity to help you. I saw this happen many times as a L&D nurse as well. Particularly considering that circumstance, you all did fantastic!!!! He is beautiful!

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    Elaine

    August 20, 2019 at 12:31 pm

    This was the first birthing story I have ever read and I am so glad it was. This was a very emotional and beautiful sounding experience. Thank you for all the details of things I would have never imagined before. Thank you for sharing your story.

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    Kay SMITH

    August 22, 2019 at 3:17 pm

    It took me awhile to get to read your Birth Story. I’m so sorry your labor was so long ~ and things were a bit rough ~ but thankful that things turned out beautifully for all 3 of you. You and hubby will be wonderful parents to Theo. I enjoy both of your Instagram posts and videos. Enjoy your precious family — and take care of yourself. Much love and prayers. Kay

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    Brittany

    August 23, 2019 at 10:15 pm

    What a perfectly written story! I never took the time to write my own birth story down but we had almost the exact same experience and emotional rollercoaster that went with them! Thank you for letting me relive my own amazing, awesome, humbling experience through your story. Good job mama! Hoping for the best for your family.

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    Jenn De Feo

    August 24, 2019 at 11:46 pm

    Beautiful writing and so glad you are all well!
    Thank you for sharing!
    Congratulations!
    XO

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    Holly

    October 14, 2019 at 8:05 pm

    Very well written Erin! Thank you sharing your story

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