My Climb: My First Pole Class
I went to my first pole class in January 2014 by myself. I had no idea what really to expect when I got to the studio, but when I entered I was greeted by the owner and my instructor for the evening. I filled out the necessary paperwork for insurance purposes and then I was shown into the official pole room.
Prior to coming to my class, I was told that I need to wear shorts for class. This was extremely intimidating as I had not worn shorts for years. Then I walk into the pole room to find that the back and front of the room was lined with mirrors. It was the first time in years I faced myself in a full length mirror. For so long I was in denial about my weight and my appearance. I avoided mirrors and pictures at all costs prior to pole.
The warm up began over by the poles on the dance floor. I barely made it through the warm up. I remember thinking how I used to be able to do all these movements with such ease and things had really changed. I began to become in tune with my body and how far I let myself go.
After the warm up, it was time to partner up since at the time there was only 5 poles and 2 people per pole. I was paired up with this other woman, who I assumed was in shape as she was much smaller and it really intimidated me. As we began learning the basics, I began to realize that we were all on the same playing field. Pole can be incredibly awkward for any woman since it takes a lot of body awareness and confidence to accomplishment some of the spins. I started to let my guard down and realized my pole partner was harmless then we began to bond.
Since this class was a 4 week series my pole partner encouraged me and asked if I planned to return. I felt safe by the end of class and knew I had to at least come back for the next 3 classes.
I was immediately added to a private group on Facebook, which allowed people to express themselves in a judgment free zone. You could share your progress photos, ask questions, and post any pole videos you may have found that you liked. I knew this is exactly what I needed to get myself back on track.
I did not notice a lot of changes in pole at first, but I did notice changes at home. I could walk up the stairs, shave my legs, and get in and out of the car without feeling exhausted. I began caring more and holding my head higher. My relationship with my husband began to change for the better, we fought less about my insecurities.
Pole was the stepping stone to get me to begin making choices for myself. As time went on I was able to add additional classes, such as: Conditioning, Buti Yoga, Yoga, and Dance Classes. I was able to open myself up to change my emotional eating and body image issues.
On the left is my very first fireman spin that was actually modified. I couldn’t walk into a fireman spin, so I would get up in a climb and spin. On the right is current day and I can walk into my fireman spin and obviously spin faster!
I am also very proud to say that I will be competing in my first competition at the end of May in Chicago!
This was only the beginning of my unfinished story.