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Eda Marbury: My Climb

From left to right: Anorexic in 2008, Heaviest in 2014, and After 2 years of pole 2016.

From left to right: Anorexic in 2008, Heaviest in 2014, and After 2 years of pole 2016.

For the last 2 years, I have begun to dig myself out of a self hatred hole that I dug. When I was in the 7th grade I became anorexic because I did not fit into what society wanted, my dad was an alcoholic and unsupportive, and I was heavily bullied in school. I thought that starving myself would solve these problems, but they did not.

After I graduated, I went to college and I met my husband. He noticed right away that I was not eating and he began to encourage me to eat. I started to eat, but unfortunately I did not understand the nutritional value of food and became an overeater. The feeling of self-hatred did not go away, but I tried to solve it with food. This type of behavior went on for 5 years and I was ready to give up on myself.

I stopped going out, getting dressed, and looking in mirrors. I was in denial about how I felt and what I had done to my body and self esteem. I was friends with a girl on Facebook and she began posting her pole fitness videos. I was immediately intrigued, but of course I just watched. I loved how she looked at herself in the mirror and she seemed to happy. I craved to feel the same way about myself.

Previously, I had tried to lose weight, but it never really stuck. My husband and I began to talk about when we wanted to start a family. The more I thought about it, the more I realized that if we had a child that I would miss out on a whole lot. It was difficult for me to get up and down the stairs at our house and I could barely fit in my car. I would tire just from putting on my shoes. Not only would I physically tire easily, but what did I know about nutrition? Who would teach my child about nutrition? I began to question myself, would my child hate themselves because I hated myself and I’m the example?

I knew that if I wanted to lose the weight that I would have to be all in and that it would have to be more then just losing the pounds. I would have to have a total attitude adjustment and actually begin to love myself.

The next time I saw her post about pole fitness, she announced that she was going to be an instructor at a studio that was local to me. I immediately messaged her and asked her the details. I was welcomed right away by her to come and try it.

At this point I began the first day of the rest of my life. I will never look back.

 

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13 Comments

  1. Megan Reddix

    Megan Reddix

    March 23, 2016 at 9:16 am

    This is a great story! Although I don’t know you from more than just this antidote, I am really proud! Get it girl! Such a beautiful thing to move from self hatred and literally climb the pole to self love!

    1. Eda Marbury

      Eda Marbury

      March 23, 2016 at 9:25 am

      Thank you! You’ll be seeing more blog posts for me continuing my story! You are welcome to check out my Facebook page Eda Marbury’s Climb to the Top.

      1. Megan Reddix

        Megan Reddix

        March 23, 2016 at 11:35 am

        I definitely will! You’re an inspiration 🙂

  2. Amanda

    Amanda

    March 23, 2016 at 3:19 pm

    Thanks for sharing this! I’m so happy you found an activity you enjoy that has helped you in your process — I’ve been wanting to try pole dance fitness; it looks like so much fun! Looking forward to reading more of your story. 🙂

    1. Eda Marbury

      Eda Marbury

      March 23, 2016 at 4:04 pm

      Thank you so much! I’ve actually found a ton of activities that I love after I found pole, which includes yoga! I can’t wait to continue sharing all my experiences with my life and my fitness journey!

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    Yvette

    March 24, 2016 at 2:25 am

    Oh my gosh, I tried pole once and came away covered in bruises lol! It’s so hard! You’re awesome, can’t wait to see the next installment.

    1. Eda Marbury

      Eda Marbury

      March 24, 2016 at 6:23 am

      Yes! Those are what we call pole kisses! Thank you!

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    Denise

    March 25, 2016 at 2:38 pm

    Very Inspirational. I also suffered from eating and self esteem issues. I found that yoga and contemporary dance really helped. Great that you found something that helped for you! Love

    1. Eda Marbury

      Eda Marbury

      March 25, 2016 at 3:08 pm

      Thank you! It isn’t easy to overcome these issues and I still struggle, but that will come and go with growth!

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    Rocio

    March 25, 2016 at 3:02 pm

    Go girl! you are so awesome!!!

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    Abby

    March 25, 2016 at 4:32 pm

    You go girl!

    So glad you found happiness and fitness! You’ve inspired me to look into more fitness classes in my area, because that looks hella fun! Good luck on your fitness and family journey; I know you can do it!

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      Eda Marbury

      March 27, 2016 at 8:42 pm

      Thank you so much!

      Let me know how your search goes!

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